Sunday, August 29, 2010

One month down, a journey to go


I now understand the anxiety each Biggest Loser contestant feels when it comes to the weigh-in. When I put myself out there by starting this blog, I didn’t expect to wrestle with the emotions of an open weigh-in. It is really a vulnerable spot to be in and on the day I was to weigh-in, my insecurities started to flood my mind with questions. Did I lose enough weight? What will others think? If I only lose half of what I expected, what will next month look like?

Well… My first weigh-in was at the house of my good friends, Jonathan and Alysia Tarpley. They so kindly invited us over for a wonderful Chinese chicken salad lunch and an afternoon of chill time, but before we could dig in, I threw my shorts on and headed over to step on the scale. As the scale calculated my weight, I couldn’t help but hold my breath. WHAhaha 266.8 I couldn’t believe it. I lost 26.4 pounds. That’s incredible. The time and effort had really paid off.

But now I am rethinking the questions I had that morning. What would others think, if I didn’t lose very much or what would next month look like, if I only lost half of what I expected? These are telling signs that I have not arrived in my pursuit of a healthy self-concept. Should I be any less pleased with myself if I had only lost 12 pounds? Of course not, but this still tends to be the way I think. I have quite the journey still ahead of me and I am not sure if it has much to do with weight loss, but I am ready and willing to learn. Month two here we come.

8 comments:

  1. God says, 'You are deeply loved, fully pleasing, and acceptable in His sight'.... I love you too. Way-to-go Josh!! So happy you are making healthy lifestyle changes & learning to love urself. It takes practice to erase the old tapes (old way of thinking) and replace with healthy thoughts of love. I pray for strength courage wisdom for you in your journey, Josh xxoo Lori Ruseler

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  2. Dude that is awesome. you keep it up you'll be down to your goal wait in less that the year you gave yourself. Rooting for yah!

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  3. Very proud of you Josh!!!
    (Kathy)

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  4. Congrats Josh! You did great. We rejoice in the big victory this month but we will also rejoice next month if you only lose 8lbs. It is still a victory and still in your long term goal plan. Paul said whether I abound or am abased I have learned to be content. Keep on going!!

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  5. Yeah!!! My man Josh. We will be rock climbing in no time.

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  6. That is soooooo tight J3! I am so proud of you! I was curious to know the progress that you were making and since I am no longer a few doors away from you, the only way to know was to wait till the weigh-in was posted. lol....amazing job! Cheryl, you must be a wonderful support for him! I am proud of you BOTH!
    Melissa

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  7. I love you!!! You are doing great and I am slowly following but at least you are leading me in the right direction and just think I may live longer all because of you :) Are you sure you want that...lol

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  8. Josh, I am so proud of you for your honesty and your discipline. Keep it up!

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